Random Access Memories

May 31, 2019

The first rose of the season.

by @ 2:19 pm. Filed under Uncategorized

May 11, 2019

“Just do it this way instead”

by @ 7:32 am. Filed under Personal

It really amazes me how often this happens. We have reached the age of the internet where what you want is often not what you get.

What am I talking about? Well sometimes you go online and ask questions to accomplish/build/design/understand something. But the response comes back from someone else saying, “Just don’t do that”.

“I want to design a house.” / “Just hire an architect.”

“I want to fix this device.” / “Just hire a repairman.”

“I want to learn to be an engineer.” / “Just hire an engineer.”

“I want to learn how to build this thing.” / “Just buy one someone else built.”

This is utterly and completely unhelpful and pointless. Why the hell do we respond to requests for knowledge with suggestions to be materialistic? I mean it almost always comes down to “Don’t learn it, just pay someone else for it.”

Of course the real reason behind this kind of response is that people are lazy, and/or want to prove they know better. (Note: I rarely see women acting this way, it’s almost always been men. “Father knows best” thinking.)

If we lived life this way nobody would ever learn how to do anything. But it’s likely more because we somehow think we’re being helpful by giving a quick response that isn’t what someone asked for.

Eventually this will probably lead to.

“How do I learn to swim?” / “Don’t bother, just drown.”

May 8, 2019

3D printer live feed

by @ 12:23 pm. Filed under Personal


This should be up and showing my 3D printer printing. (It’s mainly for me to watch it’s progress remotely.)

March 6, 2019

So, I just got done reading “There, there” by Tommy Orange. And, well, I didn’t like it.

by @ 7:22 pm. Filed under Entertainment, Media, Reviews

Yes, it’s decently well written, but it’s one long string of anger, bitterness, pain, and damaged people.

Yes, it delves into the lives of modern Native Americans. 
Yes, their lives, and the lives of many other minorities are not always the greatest, nor have they been the greatest. But I don’t understand what makes people think this book is so profound.

Personally? Sure, I care about trying to understand what other people deal with. But there is a limit. As they tell you on airplanes, “Put your own oxygen mask on first before helping someone else with theirs”. I have enough pain in my life. I don’t want anymore. I don’t need to fill my free time with stories of other people’s pain. I’m just not that kind of masochist. And he is trying to cram in so many different kinds of pain that none of them get dealt with deeply, or resolved.

I feel the author is a sadist trying to make his readers suffer. And that the people praising the novel are feeling that suffering as some form of self-flagellation that redeems the sins of their forefathers.

The author also throws reality out the window when talking about 3D printed weapons. Yes, it is possible to print a simple single-shot gun (I wouldn’t use it, WAY too dangerous.) But the author makes it sound like you can print an automatic pistol in 3 hours. (The bad guys in the book get bullets into the event, they could have gotten real guns into the event just as easily as those bullets.)

I get the feeling that the author thought that the idea of a 3D printed gun was interesting enough, or dangerous enough, to force it to conform to what he wanted it to be. Which really makes it seem MUCH more common and deadly than it is.

The characters also seem to all speak with the same kind of voice. They all view their word through the same lens. It’s like he changes the name, and the time, but gives none of the character their own unique personality. This really pops out in the audiobook version where even with different voice actors it’s really hard to figure out what character we are listening to.

The ending also fell short, like an unfinished end of a bridge that just falls off into nothingness. What happens? I guess we will never know… I find myself wondering if he intended to allow the pain to linger by not finishing the book. A last final kick in the teeth to the masochists praising this novel.

The whole thing felt hopeless. And if you want to feel hopeless just read the newspaper.

February 18, 2019

And my LEGO D&D campaign is back up and running!

by @ 10:42 am. Filed under Personal

The PCs faced their first dungeon. With a huge beetle, lizard folks and a giant snake. (And tons of garbage.)

October 4, 2018

Just bought a new computer to run my multiboxing

by @ 7:08 am. Filed under Personal

This is going to hurt, a lot. But it’s time for a new primary computer.

Thankfully I can reuse my 500GB SSD and 2 23″ monitors.

CPU: Intel – Core i5-8400 2.8GHz 6-Core Processor ($204.99 @ Amazon)
Motherboard: MSI – B360 GAMING PLUS ATX LGA1151 Motherboard ($86.00 @ Amazon)
Memory: Corsair – Vengeance LPX 32GB (2 x 16GB) DDR4-2666 Memory ($279.99 @ Amazon)
Video Card: MSI – Radeon RX 580 8GB ARMOR OC Video Card ($239.99 @ Amazon)
Case: Antec – VSK4000E U3 ATX Mid Tower Case ($42.99 @ Amazon)
Power Supply: SeaSonic – FOCUS Plus Gold 650W 80+ Gold Certified Fully-Modular ATX Power Supply ($89.99 @ Amazon)
Total: $943.95

March 24, 2018

On houses and happiness

by @ 10:01 am. Filed under Personal

Some of you know I am buying a house in Spokane Valley, WA right now. I take possession in a few days. And I’m pretty ambivalent about it all.

People keep asking, “Aren’t you happy about this?” or saying “I’m so happy for you!”

Yet I keep thinking, “It’s just a house”.

But we have a VERY materialistic culture, so I understand how a house can be the center of someone’s existence.

Western society tells us that it provides security, safety, and stability to “own” a home.

It is a sign that “I have arrived!”, or “I made it to the top!” of the material ladder.

Well, I’m just not all that materialistic.

Safety and security come from inside, not outside.

A house becomes a possession we invest so much of ourselves in. Take for example how crushing it is when a house floods, or catches fire. Then it’s a horrible tragedy.

When in reality it’s just one more “thing”, and things half lifespans. It’s stone, cement, wood, etc. It is a conglomeration of materials that will all eventually turn to dust or ash the way all things do. We just hope that happens long after we die.

As the Tuareg proverb goes, “Houses are the graves of the living”.

Well, I’m not ready to be buried yet. I just want some space to accomplish things and have friends gather. This is no different than buying a car with more seats to drive more friends around. Nobody says “WHOA! Awesome! You bought a minivan!”

Having that space to do things in is useful, but the “having it” is not what brings me happiness.

People are what matter, things do not.

LEGO D&D Campaign – More Pictures

by @ 9:39 am. Filed under Personal

So here is another batch of photos that show my LEGO campaign.












March 17, 2018

Friends and emotional pain

by @ 3:41 pm. Filed under Personal

So recently I went through a nasty breakup.

Friends of mine came down on both sides of the line. Some went with her, some to me. That is to be expected I suppose.

But what happened next I didn’t expect, even tho I probably should have.

You see, I had made the horrible mistake of showing weakness and looking like I needed attention (well, duh, or course I wanted some emotional support) to a group of people that expected me to be anything but that.

They expected me to be a strong alpha male, to act like nothing was wrong, and bury all my hurt.

And they pulled no punches in telling me this.

Those of you that know me, know that almost all of my friends are women. Partly because I find that women understand emotional needs FAR better than males do.

But in this case it was a woman that started this ball rolling on me, and it took me COMPLETELY by surprise.

What sideswiped me even harder is that I had comforted this very same woman more than once before. But it seems that what works one way doesn’t work the opposite.

The lesson from all this? Be much more careful who you show your emotional pain to. I decided based on this to cut my ties to this group altogether.

Which really sucks. I mean, isn’t this the entire reason someone might have friends? To turn to for support?

Well, as it turns out, these people don’t really see each other as “friends” in the first place.

I guess that’s my second mistake isn’t it.


November 30, 2017

LEGO Pathfinder Campaign – The Bestiary (Bad guys)

by @ 6:17 am. Filed under Gaming, Personal

These are some pictures of the monsters I have for the players to encounter. Not complete by any stretch of the imagination, lol.




LEGO Pathfinder Campaign – Behind the screen.

by @ 6:14 am. Filed under Gaming, Personal

So, this is what is behind my DM screen, and a few details of how I play.


And a picture from the front.


I play with a notebook and a second screen in portrait mode so I can easily look things up, view handbooks or change music.

I installed speakers and a subwoofer under the table, it makes the music really immersive. (I’m sure my downstairs neighbors love me, lol)

I have an hourglass on the table that I flip when I want to get the players attention for something.

I bought a magnetic Pathfinder Combat Pad to track initiative. I let the players manage it.

I have a full set of Rory’s Story Dice that I use when I need excess “fluff” story. (Like when you want to give an NPC simple backstory.)

The wooden dice tray I use I got on Amazon. It was relatively cheap but I like it quite a bit.

Behind me there is an extra notebook computer for the players to use. And connected to it is an old Skylanders “Portal of Power”. When you hook it up to a Linux computer it lights up and changes color randomly. (Makes for a fun immersive coaster)

I also have several wood and metal “chest shaped” boxes with misc things in them like rocks, keys, scrolls, letters, real animal teeth, etc. This adds to the immersive feel and allows the players to have a real feeling of “items” in the game.

On the far side of the room is a set of glass beer mugs. They make for decent game-appropriate drink containers, and they are VERY bottom heavy so the players (hopefully) won’t tip them over.

A few things I still want to add are some magic wand props and a more sorted musical playlist.

Lego Pathfinder Campaign – A few pictures.

by @ 6:03 am. Filed under Gaming, Personal

Here we have some pictures of the ongoing D&D LEGO campaign.




My next task is to find a way to deal with cavern and sloping walls. For now I can just keep the map square since it’s all homebrew, heh.

October 9, 2017

Details about my LEGO Pathfinder Campaign

by @ 3:07 pm. Filed under Gaming, Personal

So, a few people have asked me for details about the builds I am using in my Pathfinder game. I will attempt to give them here. 🙂

I tried to combine “What will look good” with “What is affordable”. Sometimes price won out, sometimes looks did. Overall I’ve sunk $200 into the project so far, beyond the LEGO I already had on hand.

I settled on 4×4 plates to serve as 5′ squares. This gave a starting scale to everything. It’s not perfect but it works alright. I did not have enough of these plates on hand so I bought about 300 each in light bluish gray and dark bluish gray.


The plates I used for the subfloor I already had on hand in various sizes. But if you do not have large plates don’t worry, I found that 8×8, 4×8, and 12×8 are the best sizes, This allows the checkerboard pattern to always be lined up properly. I bought around 1000 technic pins to make the connections. (I store these in X-pods which I think are terrific little holders)


I bought around 2000 1×2 technic-hole bricks to use for the connection edges. This granted me three benefits. #1 1×2’s were cheap, very cheap. #2 The connections would always be properly spaced. (Every checkerboard would always have a technic hole in the center) #3 I could always use the 1×2’s in any size floor piece I wanted to make regardless of how big or small it is. (I made one piece of floor that is 32×32 studs from 4x 16×16 plates and 2×4 brick internal supports/connectors. It turned out surprisingly tough)

I used “extra” bricks to fill in the center that holds up the floor tiles since these will never be seen (odd colors, odd brand blocks, pieces with connections I never use, etc,)


After making what I hope is enough flooring I moved on to the walls. I figured 7 bricks high would be enough. I also made short walls for one side to allow the players to more easily see into the setup, and move their minis. Along with that, I made archways and doors which allow a 1-brick offset between rooms so I don’t deal with 2 walls trying to take up the same inside corner point.

I bought several thousand 1x# plates in yellow (due to it being cheapest) and used them for the short walls. This allows me to know what piece is intentionally a short wall, and what piece has broken apart in the bucket of walls.

I used solid colors on the walls for the moment, but eventually, I plan to break all the walls apart and rebuild with random colors. I decided against using red/blue/yellow for the walls simply because it didn’t look very good at all. But I also had enough grays/black/white on hand to use. If I didn’t have what I did I would probably do something like this: http://www.legogm.com/2015/05/lego-terrain-101.html and only use bright colors if I had no other option.

I will likely add wall-decorations later like torches, paintings, etc.


And here we have a finished map with the campaign well underway for it’s first adventure session.


August 15, 2017

Retail sales and telling us what we want and why we want it.

by @ 8:15 am. Filed under Business

So every so often I check appliance stores to see if they ever have an all-in-one clothes washer and evaporative dryer. In short, it’s a unit where you put the clothes in dirty, and a few hours later you come pull them out clean and dry.

Nobody carries one. Mind you I had one over 10 years ago. But yet no appliance retailer carries one. They often say “You can buy one online”. Well, if I wanted to just be told to buy something online I wouldn;t bother to come look for it in a store now would I? *boggle*

Furthermore, they like to always point out how it takes “several hours” to dry the clothes. As if this is somehow going to change my mind about a product I used to own and want to buy again. These kind of dryers are also very popular in Europe and have been for decades. Switzerland has actually outlawed vented “hot box” dryers since 2012.

They are also very gentle on clothes. They do not give you warm toasty feeling clothes, but that is actually a good thing for fabric.

But yet, do I ever see one anywhere? No, I don’t. Instead, I am told their drawbacks and why I don’t want one. Last time I checked the consumer drove the interaction, not the salesman.

July 19, 2017

Undisclosed compromise

by @ 10:26 am. Filed under Business, Expectations

So I got an email from BofA who holds the primary credit card I use (I pay it off monthly, it’s just to get airline miles)

In part it said the following:

“Security Alert: We’re Issuing You a New Card To Help Keep Your Information Safe. We’re letting you know your card may have been part of a compromise at an undisclosed merchant.”

Oh, I see, an “undisclosed merchant”. IE. a company was compromised, but they refuse to admit whom. Always nice to NOT know what company has a security issue, right?

July 18, 2017

Internet coverage maps that supposedly do not exist.

by @ 8:26 am. Filed under Business, Technology

So recently I have been searching for a house to buy. And the availability of high speed wired internet has been a top priority.

One would think that listing what kind of internet is available at a house would be part of a home sale listing. But it’s not. And the rare times when it is there is no mention of what the max capabilities of that connection are. (It might be shown that a house is serviced by Comcast and/or Centurylink in my area, but the owner likely has no clue what the maximum speed that site is capable of.

Now, those two companies have a database. You can go to their websites, plug in an address and it spits back what is available at what speed. It’s even mostly accurate. However, there is no map of this database. If you want to check what kind of service is available you must put in exact addresses only and get the results of that exact query only. The companies like to say that a map of this data is somehow “unavailable” or “cannot be done”.

Let’s think about this for a moment. Imagine Google Maps as a database, but not as a map. You know “Joe” lives someplace nearby, you remember going to his house a few weeks ago, but you didn’t get the address. You zoom over to that area, turn on satellite data and look for a house that matches what you remember of Joe’s house. While you’re going to Joe’s house you want to stop for some Chinese food, so you search for Chinese in the area and a few places pop up. You do the same to find a bank and a dry cleaner. Because the database is searchable by general area.

If Google’s map database worked like the cable and phone company database you would need to plug in a known exact address for all of these things and then get a “yes/no” reply to that query. You would have to query, “Is Joe’s house at 1060 West Addison?” and the database would reply “no”. It would not show you the location so you would have no way to know how close or far from your possible mark you were.

So you see the data the phone/cable companies have *IS CAPABLE* of being searched in a map view. That’s what the data is. A list of addresses with the speed data correlated to those addresses.

The real question now becomes *WHY* do those companies not want their data to be searchable in map form?

My guess is because such a map would show just how slow and poorly serviced internet customers are.

Nothing like denying information to keep your iron grip on a market, right?

July 6, 2017

And we see the signs of the next coming storm on the horizon.

by @ 3:46 pm. Filed under Business, News, Politics

For those of you not following the markets (overvalued), unemployment data (Unemployment is down), government policy changes (The odds of more fiscal stimulus is almost nil), or federal monetary policy (The Fed is raising interest rates). These are all indicators point to a coming recession in the next 1-3 years.

If you want more signs they will be things like a collapse in consumer spending, a drop in housing prices, rising unemployment, and an inverted yield curve. (You can learn about that here: http://www.cnbc.com/2017/06/05/inverted-yield-curve-predicting-coming-recession-commentary.html)

We have not seen these more “certain” signs yet, and I encourage you all to look out for them. (I would love to be proven wrong, lol) I think the odds are good enough to start “digging in”.

What does all this mean for us? Well, since we see some of the signs of a train coming at us down the tunnel we can at least plan a little.

Financially, this is a good time to save. Plan for possible coming unemployment. Plan for a drop in the stock market. (Divest your retirement, especially if you are over 45) Look for a job that doesn’t come and go at the whim of consumer spending. (Jobs people always need are more stable than jobs around things considered luxuries. Like eating out or buying a new car.)

Politically, it means that come 2020 we’re going to be looking at things getting worse, not better. Which means a change in party. (For those of you with aspirations of holding political office, heh.)

This is also a really good time to sell a house if you were at all planning to within the next five years. Better to rent for awhile and buy again than to be underwater later when you want to sell.

Me? I’m going to be saving, then investing those savings in the stock market after it looks like it’s hit a low point. Often stocks get badly undervalued when the bottom drops out.

I also think my home buying plans are on hold until the coming recession bottoms out. It will be a good point to buy, especially since the Spokane area where I am is in the midst of a bubble.

Curious as to what anyone else thinks would be good planning measures.


April 21, 2017

Thoughts on my tablet upgrade.

by @ 1:59 pm. Filed under Personal

So.. I decided to go ahead and order a Mediapad M3 (7″ tablet) to replace my aging Nexus 7 2013. I don;t really carry a phone, just a 7″ tablet and an (aging) Verizon Mifi device that runs me 50$ a month for 5GB of bandwidth.

First impressions? Well.. mixed but generally good.

The good:
– It’s fast, blazingly so. It beats the crap out of the Nexus 7 benchmarking at 6835 in Passmark vs 2159 for the Nexus.
– The screen. Bright, crisp and huge. The device still fits in my hand the way I like with my thumb on one side and my fingers on the other yet the screen is more than an inch larger diagonally. (1200×1920 (320dpi) on the Nexus 7, 1600×2560 (480dpi) on the Mediapad)
– It was (relatively) easy to unlock the bootloader and install TWRP in the second (yes, it has two) recovery partition.
– Expansion. It has a MicroSD expansion port (128gb max) that the Nexus 7 lacks. I have not run out of space on my Nexus 7, but I like moving large files easily between devices.
– Vibration. This unit comes with a vibration device so it buzzes when I have a notification. This is a huge plus to me.

The drawbacks:
– Price. The 64GB model was 350$. (The 32GB would have been 50$ less)
– No “solid” case. I use a heavy-duty Seidio case on my Nexus 7, which I could not get for the Mediapad. I don’t like “book” cases, preferring the “glove” style rubber ones.
– No NFC. I hardly use it tho, but it was something neat to have. Not
– No wireless charging. This one annoys me, but I decided to accept it since it wasn’t really a deal breaker.
– The UI. Which the Huawei UI system that comes with it wasn’t really what I wanted, the ROM I installed made it “acceptable”. The only things that still annoy me is the habit to “round” the corners of the icons. (I admit the UI is something i’m much more picky about than most people)
– No 5ghz wifi. The chipset supports it, but it’s turned off for the US market. Likely in the future someone will figure out how to enable it. (Not a huge deal, since I usually use 2.4ghz here, but notable)
– Not much in the way of custom ROMs yet. (The one I am using I got here: https://www.androidfilehost.com/?w=files&flid=125388 )
– The second recovery partition isn’t useful. I screwed up my ROM install and tried to use the recovery partition to fix it, but it couldn’t. Eventually I fixed it the geeky way (with lots of tears) This might be because of how I messed with it, not sure.

Was it worth it? So far, yes. 🙂

February 4, 2017

At the end of the day Trump and the GOP do not scare me

by @ 11:33 am. Filed under Personal, Politics

Yes, you read that right, the next four years really do not scare me. They are certain to annoy me, but i’m not terrified of some long-term change in the USA.

Why? Well, because as Martin Luther King once said, “Morality cannot be legislated, but behavior can be regulated. Judicial decrees may not change the heart, but they can restrain the heartless.”

Morality cannot be legislated. Laws can be passed, behavior controlled, but that won’t change morality. Yes, yes, the GOP hopes it will, but in the end it won’t. You only need to look at history for proof of that.

For example, during the Civil Rights struggle decades ago laws were passed to force civil rights on the population. They resisted, because the laws did not change what they saw as a correct morality. Instead it took decades of moral change to alter moral views. And what we have today is a world where racism is called out as shameful and only a minority still think it’s acceptable. I mean there would be a massive public outcry if a store dared to put up a “Whites only” sign in their window, regardless of how legal or illegal that action might be.

A more recent example was the Defense of Marriage Act. The conservatives attempted to pass a law to change the moral view of a subject, and failed miserably. Young people highly support gay marriage, and making a law against it has not changed their view of it.

So now we come to Trump and the GOP wildly trying to make laws and rules to change current morality on abortion, the environment, healthcare, etc. History has shown us that it takes time and a changing society to move those views, not just the law, so their efforts will be annoying, but they will hardly be permanent.

December 4, 2016

December Travel Details

by @ 1:10 pm. Filed under Personal

So, for those of you wanting to know when and where i am going to be this month I will post my flight information here and try to remember to update it. (In general tho no news is good news.)

Dec 5, 2016 – Spokane to Seattle
GEG 8:30am – SEA 9:37am
Alaska Airlines 2369

Dec 9, 2016 – Seattle to Spokane
SEA 4:00pm – GEG 4:58pm
Alaska Airlines 696

Then I am home for a week. After that I go back to Seattle for another week.

Dec 19, 2016 – Spokane to Seattle
GEG 6:00am – SEA 7:10am
Alaska Airlines 699

Dec 23, 2016 – Seattle to Spokane
SEA 9:00am – GEG 9:58am
Alaska Airlines 2378

I figure I am likely to get bumped on the Dec 23rd flight home since it’s 2 days before Christmas but I don’t mind.


Dec 5th, 11:02am – in seattle
Dec 9th, 5pm – in Spokane

My second one trip has been cancelled BTW

November 28, 2016

Today on “horrible business decisions”!

by @ 5:48 pm. Filed under Business, Technology

Some decisions are just horrifically bad.

Like, really, REALLY bad.

Let’s take for a moment a decision by Gateway computer around 2005.

“Hey guys! Let’s add in some software so when the computer monitor is disconnected from it’s computer it goes into this horribly annoying mode. Since the only reason we put monitors on other computers is when they’re stolen, right?”

Most of you can already see the disaster this causes. Businesses that move parts between computers comes to mind, or my case when these monitors end up on the used market.

I unwittingly bought one of these monitors from Goodwill. It tested fine (at first) and seemed good and pretty.

Then, I saw this pop up:


Oh, lovely… but this can probably be fixed I figured. Most companies understand how their bad decisions go awry.

Hrrm, so the software was made by a third party company, not good.

All the download links to said software don;t even work anymore, also not good.

Sending an email to their support email on their site returns deliverable, hopelessly bad.

So, I get to throw this pretty 22″ LCD monitor in the garbage.

All because Gateway decided it would make a horrible decision, and never bother to put out a fix when that decision went to shit.

Thanks Gateway! Oh, wait, I mean Acer that bought them in 2007.


November 1, 2016

Online dating, is pointless. (At least for me.)

by @ 4:31 pm. Filed under Personal

So, I have tried lots of online dating sites in the last decade. OkCupid, Plenty of Fish, Match.com, eHarmony.com, the Tinder app, etc. I have spent hundreds and hundreds of hours on profiles, special greeting messages, pictures, and even some money on premium services. Yet today as I found myself rewriting a profile yet again I suddenly realized something.

I have never, ever met someone in person because of one of those sites.

And it shocked me. All this time and effort expended, for nothing. Yet I kept coming back and spending time on it. Scratching away figuring that someone on there would want to spend time with little old me.

Where have I been meeting people?

Everywhere else.

The app Whisper, Facebook, Fetlife, RL meetups (Non-dating ones. Dating specific meetups produced the same empty results that online dating has.), etc.

So my conclusion? Don’t bother with dating sites or apps. They are a total waste of time, and a horrible waste of money. Your results will vary of course, but mine have had a failure rate of 100%.

I have better things to do with my time and money than waste it on services that provide a horribly false sense of hope.

October 13, 2016

Why I do not like Donald Trump

by @ 5:39 pm. Filed under Personal

Swiped shamelessly from this page: http://theshizz.org/forum/index.php/topic/40060-2016-us-presidential-election/page-241#entry1332108

Donald trump is a fascist who:

openly calls for targeting innocent women and children for murder (a war crime)ti
promised to force the military to commit war crimes after they balked
about torture thinks “Even if it doesn’t work they probably deserved it anyway”
points to ISIS to justify torture saying we should be “fighting fire with fire”
said “The problem is we have the Geneva Conventions, all sorts of rules and regulations, so the soldiers are afraid to fight”
won’t rule out using nuclear weapons in Europe, since it’s ‘a big place’
said lethal injection is “too comfortable”
wants to lower gas prices by invading countries and stealing their oil
when asked about that plan, clarrified that “We’re not stealing anything. We’re taking.“
proposed mandatory death penalty for killing a police officer
pledges to open up libel laws on newspapers to stifle freedom of speech
incites violence by his supporters
defended ‘passionate’ supporters who brutally beat and urinated on a homeless man
said he would love to punch protesters
jokes about murdering reporters
joked about the death of Hillary Clinton. twice.
called for the execution of minority children known as ‘The Central Park Five’ (turns out, DNA evidence found they were innocent)
but still implies they were guilty after they were exonerated
says he might have insituted internment camps in WWII
wants to remove Muslim TSA agents
said the Chinese government ‘showed strength’ in response to the Tienanmen Square protests
calls for Snowden to be executed saying ‘kill the traitor’

Donald trump is an idiot who believes

global warming is a hoax pepetrated by the Chinese
temperatures are at record lows
environmentally friendly light bulbs cause cancer
wind power kills “all the birds”
asbestos is safe
asbestos would have prevented the World Trade Center from collapsing
vaccines cause Autism
and doctors are lying about vaccines not causing autism
Ted Cruz’s dad was involved in JFK’s assasination
the unemployment rate might be 42%
Obama forged his birth certificate
Obama is a Secret Muslim
Obama didn’t write his book
Obama was born ‘Barry Soetoro’
Obama murdered the Hawaiian State Health Director and staged his death as a plane crash
Scalia was murdered

Donald trump is also a liar who…

lied 87 times in a week’s worth ofpublic apperances. once every three miutes
lies about self funding his campaign
lies about campaign spending
lies about polls
lied 71 times in an hour speech
claims The Art of the Deal is the best selling business book of all time.
lied about his campaign manager assaulting a female reporter until tape of it was released
falsely claims Hillary wants to release violent criminals from jail
claims the U.S is “losing jobs like never before.
claims Obama is going to import a quarter of a million refugees. (the real number is 25 times lower.)
claims the U.S has no process for vetting refugees
claims the U.S only allows Muslim refugees and refuses to let Christians in.
claims “scores” of U.S migrants have been charged with terrorism. (the actual number is 0)
lies about French Gun Laws after Paris Attack.
claims he lost hundreds of friends on 9/11 yet can’t give a single name.
claims 9/11 hijackers’ wives were informed and sent home before the attack. (none of the 9/11 hijackers were even married.)
claims he saw thousands of Muslims celebrating on 9/11 even after the claim is debunked
claims Orlando shooter was a foreign born immigrant despite being born in the same city as Trump.
claims four out of five white victims of homicide were murdered by blacks after retweeting statistics made up by neo-nazis.
claims he can’t release his taxes because he’s under audit (IRS says that’s a B.S. excuse)
claims Oakland and Ferguson are among the most dangerous cities in the world. (they aren’t even among the most dangerous in their states)
lies about his winery being the largest on the east coast.
claims June has “no jobs to be had” despite 5.4 million job openings in the U.S. that month. (A 15-year high.)
claims the United States is the ‘most highly taxed nation in the world.’
claims the U.S. GDP is below 0
tells New York Times he wants to impose unprecedented 45% tariff on Chinese goods. At debates he accused New York Times of misquoting him, admitting how ‘crazy’ it would be and how he would never want it. Then he goes on to argue for the 45% tariff two minutes later.
claims Obama spent 4 million dollars to conceal school and passport records.
claims the U.S Border wall would only cost 8 billion dollars.
claims John Kasich ‘helped’ Lehman Brothers ‘destroy the world economy’
claims Putin called him a genius.
lies 21 times in a speech
claims to not know of David Duke despite mentioning him for 15 years
claims the Mexican government is deporting criminals into the U.S.
connects crime rates to immigration (immigrants are less likely than native born Americans to commit crime.)
claims he drew 15,000 at a rally. Real number is proven to be 4,000.
lied about raising money for veterans
claims Mexicans are ‘pouring into the U.S’ (statistics show more Mexicans leave the U.S than come in every year)
Trump lies about raising money for Veterans.
claims 300,000 veterans died waiting for medical care with no evidence
dodged the draft because of his ‘bone spurs’ (is now in ‘perfect’ health)
lies about donating to charity.
claimes he donated $100 million dollars. won’t provide records and extensive research
ranked least charitable billionaire
lies about losing lawsuits.
cheats at golf

Donald trump is ALSO a sexist who…

claims all women are bimbos and gold diggers.
claims women who breastfeed are disgusting.
employee describes Trump committing workplace sexual misconduct.
employee frequently mentioned in speeches by Trump as proof of him not being a sexist blasts Trump as being a sexist.
refuses to hire mothers because, “She’s not giving me 100%. She’s giving me 84% and 16% is going towards taking care of children.”
said ‘[women] you have to treat ’em like shit’ before pouring wine down the back of a female journalist and bragging about it
defends Roger Ailes as ‘a Very Good Person’
forces models to do humiliating tasks to ‘Weed out the ugly ones’
argues prosecutor should allow rapist to pay victim compensation instead of face jail time.
defends military personnel accused of sexual assault and rape by putting the blame on the fact women are allowed to serve along men in the military.
stalked Princess Diana and later bragged, “ I Could Have Nailed her”
Multiple women working on Trump campaign file complaints with Civil Rights Commission against Trump for sexual harassment or sexual discrimination.
woman claims Trump tried to rape her her and told her he wanted to, “Make her his sex slave.” Afterwards Trump ruins her and her husband financially.
pageant contestants claims Trump sexually assaulted her.
is accused of rape by his ex-wife.
accused of rape or sexual assault by numerous women over several decades
Over 50 former Trump models describe Trumps distrust of women, his numerous affairs and his habit of forcing himself onto women half his age while making unwanted sexual advances.
Journalist claims Trump sexually harassed her after interview.

I think that about sums things up.

October 10, 2016

My new cannons for Evil Stevie’s Pirate Game! :D

by @ 8:19 pm. Filed under Personal


They’re scary cool, heh.

September 4, 2016


by @ 8:51 am. Filed under Personal

Not sure why I thought it was such a brilliant idea to clean house on my birthday…

August 14, 2016

Not enough extrovert games.

by @ 9:42 am. Filed under Personal

So, I have been debating playing No Man’s Sky for awhile now. And I suddenly realized, it’s an introverts game.

You fly around, by yourself, exploring, cataloging, naming planets, etc. It has some interaction with humanoid types, but all the reviews say such interactions are poor at best.

Minecraft is another good example of a “low contact game” but it has a multiplayer option.

Now compare these to something like Skyrim. It has very detailed interactions with other humanoids even tho it is a single-player game.

Just something to consider, I had not really pondered this at all before. 🙂

May 30, 2016

Humans, oxygen, and asthma…

by @ 11:10 am. Filed under Personal

So, those around me know that it’s one of my base issues that I *HATE* being alone. I am an introvert trying hard to be an extrovert. It fills a base “need” in my life.

But, our society likes to act like you cannot find any happiness with other people until you are happy by yourself.

Well, I call this utter bullshit.

Imagine this in another way. Does anyone say, “You cannot live with oxygen until you learn to live without it”. Of course not. Most people know you cannot live very long at all without oxygen. All humans need a comfortable level of it to survive. Any intelligent person would not tell someone with asthma “Just breath normally, there is plenty of oxygen in the air”. Some people do not get what they need normally and need a little help.

The same holds true with human interactions. Some of us need more interaction to get by than others. Just because you can live like a hermit does not mean it’s right to assume everyone else can.

May 12, 2016

Sunset from my new place.

by @ 9:43 pm. Filed under Personal


Interesting sign I saw at work today.

by @ 9:28 pm. Filed under Business, Personal


February 26, 2016

Squeeeeee!!! Love this game.

by @ 1:49 pm. Filed under Uncategorized

January 19, 2016

I have the munchies again…

by @ 8:37 pm. Filed under Uncategorized

January 11, 2016

Farewell Ziggy Stardust

by @ 1:26 pm. Filed under Entertainment, Personal

It’s a shame that David Bowie died. But I think it should be a reminder to us all to do what we want in life.

“I really had a hunger to experience everything that life had to offer, from the opium den to whatever. And I think I have done just about everything that it’s possible to do” – David Bowie in an interview with The Telegraph

“I don’t know where I’m going from here, but I promise it won’t be boring” – David Bowie to his audience at New York’s Madison Square Garden in 1998

Well, he certainly didn’t bore us. 🙂

January 9, 2016

What happens when you screw up

by @ 11:55 am. Filed under Technology

These were both printed on my 3D printer this morning. Same feed rate, same plastic, same temperature, same nozzle diameter.

So when the one on the left started coming out “weird” I thought the printer must be broken somehow.

What I finally realized happened, is that I had changed the nozzles recently. From the .3mm one to the .7mm one. The part on the right was printed with the larger nozzle and printed fine. But after that print I went back and changed some of the settings in the slicer and created another gcode file. It set the nozzle back to the .3mm setting and gave me the part on the left by only extruding half the plastic it should have.

Moral of the story? Double check ALL your settings if something looks wrong. 😀

January 8, 2016

“You are either born sarcastic or you’re not. It is not an acquired trait.”

by @ 12:45 pm. Filed under Personal

Why buy OS books??

by @ 12:36 pm. Filed under Business, Technology

So, someone I know just bought a Windows manual for 80$.

Yep, the good old paper copy “book”. I cannot stop wondering why.

What could possibly be worth so much, that is not already online?

Feels like just a blatant marketing gimmick to get people to spend money for outdated information.

January 7, 2016

What it’s like being a shy extrovert

by @ 8:21 pm. Filed under Medicine, Personal

So, I’ve mentioned this a few times and some people give me the “WTF?!” reply. They don’t grasp how an extrovert can be shy.

Being an extrovert just means you don’t like being alone. It doesn’t mean you have good social skills or you lack anxiety. It doesn’t mean you’re “good” at getting along with people.

I’ll give you an example.

Tonight I went out to a bit of a party. I dressed up, and when I left I thought that I looked really nice. Didn’t have any worries on the walk all the way there.

I arrived and there were about 40 people in the space. Some soft music was being played. Tons of conversations were already going on.

And as I looked around the realization hit me in the face like a cold fish, “I know none of these people”.

Suddenly they were all far prettier than me, happier than me, more self-confident than me, or on the arm of someone to support them. My overwhelming feeling? I didn’t belong there. I was old, ugly, and not looking happy. (The last one I know was true, the first two were anxiety.) I tried to talk to someone and it ended up extremely awkward, which threw more gasoline on the fire. Normally I can actually handle a decent conversation. I’m sure nobody there thought I was crazy.

So after a few minutes trying to see if there was some way to feel more “in place” and failing, I left. I spent all of ten minutes there.

On the walk home I was upset, ashamed, scared.

And that my friends, is what happens when you’re an anxious and shy extrovert. You end up back home where you don’t want to be because while it sucks to be alone, it’s not terrifying.

You wait and try to find people that understand and can put up with the little quirks, and you rarely if ever jump in the pool without them.

I have the munchies again today…

by @ 7:59 pm. Filed under Gaming

January 5, 2016

“Nobody dies in architecture”

by @ 12:53 pm. Filed under Business, Technology

A quote from the head of technology at the architecture firm i’m working for. It was in response to me asking about timelines and deadlines relating to technical work on support tickets. (IE. They can wait.)

January 4, 2016

I am feeling munchy….

by @ 7:15 pm. Filed under Gaming

Let’s call a spade a spade here…

by @ 9:09 am. Filed under Personal

I’ll get right to the point. The recent takeover of a federal building in Oregon is terrorism.

Just because they are white and wearing cowboy hats and not dark-skinned wearing turbans makes no difference. They are threatening violence to intimidate people into meeting their demands.

The FBI definition is as follows:

“Domestic terrorism” means activities with the following three characteristics:

– Involve acts dangerous to human life that violate federal or state law;
– Appear intended (i) to intimidate or coerce a civilian population; (ii) to influence the policy of a government by intimidation or coercion; or (iii) to affect the conduct of a government by mass destruction, assassination. or kidnapping; and
– Occur primarily within the territorial jurisdiction of the U.S.

Let’s stop acting like it’s just a simple “protest”.

January 3, 2016

An adorable gift from a good friend :-)

by @ 5:44 pm. Filed under Personal

January 2, 2016

Yummy fresh bread

by @ 11:26 am. Filed under Food

December 31, 2015


by @ 10:51 am. Filed under Personal

Can you believe this was on a building in downtown Spokane, WA? And a rather expensive high-class building of lofts, not a slum.

Joel Building Signage

December 8, 2015

Judgmental people can go fuck off.

by @ 9:44 pm. Filed under Expectations

Sometimes, it is exceedingly annoying when you want things from the universe.

Things you might be able to have, but only if you compromise who you are.

Tonight I was at a boardgaming event. The weather was bad, there were 8 people there. I left them to play 2 4-player games. Partly because I don’t like very long games and hoped they would run their games faster with only four players. Then I would game with whoever was there.

One group left after two hours, the other was still playing their game at that time. I decided it was time to go then as well because it had started raining. One gentleman showed up in that time but immediately left.

Now, I’ve become a little less of a bitter martyr lately. So I sat and played my android games while I waited. No harm, no foul. I should note that I ended up just sitting around the week before rather than get in on a 7-person game that also took the entire evening. Perhaps this group isn’t for me. *shrug* Such is life, right?

When I left I said goodbye to the group that remained. And one of the gentleman chastised me for just sitting there. Saying that I needed to get more involved.

In other words, “You need to change who you are and how you interact if you want to play here”.

I explained that I was new, somewhat shy and didn’t like long games.

He reacted as if I was whining.

And, you know what? It pissed me off. Patience is a virtue. Imagine that, right? I sat by and waited, and somehow because nobody showed up and things have not worked out he thinks he can lecture me?

Yep, i’m male, so of course I just need to yank self-confidence out of thin air and get used to how the world functions! And somehow people think they have the right to act like they are my father if I don’t, even if i’m not complaining or even asking them for help. (Kind of like someone thin lecturing someone fat on how they should lose weight. We wouldn’t stand for that shit, why would it be acceptable to lecture me on this shit? How about a nice cup of “shut-the-fuck-up” asshole.)

Yep, I want the world to work differently. I go out and sit around and hope people talk to me. Is that a fucking crime? Is it wrong to wait for the strong assertive people to take an interest in me? Of course not. It’s not going to get results 99 times out of 100, but it’s not fucking “wrong”.

And yet, somehow, people think I can just flip a switch and be “someone else”. (Yep, take these drugs, they’ll make you someone that we want around us!”. Jesus, talk about fuckin peer pressure, right?)

I’m not taking crap from the universe anymore.

And i’m not letting people get away with this shit anymore either.

On pathetic profits.

by @ 4:41 pm. Filed under Business

Lately something has really been annoying me.

I recently went to a concert, and was frisked when I came in.

Not for weapons, they didn’t care about my pocket knife.
Nor for electronics, they let me in with my digital camera, cellphone and hotspot.
Not for misc strangeness either, as I was wearing a chainmail shirt and belt and they let me in with those.
Or the charging cables, earplugs, medicine, coins tricks…

What they were looking for, was food. And they went through all of my little belt pouches to find it. In the end I was forced to throw away the two energy bars that I carried around.

Because, or course, they wanted me to buy their very overpriced food.

The concert was already expensive, 70$ per ticket.

But they wanted to make me destroy 5$ of my property to get in. (I walked from home, 20 minutes, I couldn’t just “put them in the car”. And they had already scanned me in.)

That irks me. Why do we allow businesses to have such strong controls over things? Do we seriously give up that much of our rights to what we do with our property?

It’s pathetic that we allow profit in such wasteful ways.

November 10, 2015

Struck out completely

by @ 11:22 pm. Filed under Personal

Headed out again tonight to see what Downtown Spokane had to offer.

Most places were closed, the remaining options were deserted. I guess last night was kind of a fluke for a weeknight.

Oh well, can’t win them all I suppose.


by @ 1:00 pm. Filed under Personal

My new OKC tactic of a well-thought-out and self-admitted cut-and-paste friendly greeting has gotten it’s first positive response!

“Thank you for your message. As cut-and-paste goes, it’s far superior to the others I get.”

Since, well, OKC is the black hole of messaging for men, heh.

November 9, 2015

I actually had a decent evening!

by @ 11:09 pm. Filed under Personal

So, I decided I wanted to get out. But that I should go looking awesome. So I broke out the chainmail.

It didn;t get much attention. I had a drink at an Irish pub, and was wandering home when I saw this place with people in it. (Most places were empty or closed on a Monday) I also noticed that this woman at a booth inside had noticed me and pointed me out to her friends.

**OPPORTUNITY KNOCKS!** I thought and headed in with a big grin, then headed straight to their table while I saw her watching me and mouthing “OMG! He’s coming this way!”. Damned right I did, LOL.

Went right up to their table and said “I’m not that awesome, really!” and conversation ensued. Several other people from the bar came over to talk about the chainmail too.

I eventually had a seat and got a grilled cheese. They also made me a very sweet “old fashioned” cocktail which I thought was pretty good. (The place is The Observatory in Spokane. Only their first day of being open. I hope they stick around.)

It was a very enjoyable evening. From now on i’m going in armor all the time. It’s a totally bad-ass ice breaker and it’s like wearing liquid confidence. 😀

November 7, 2015

And another offer rejected

by @ 9:31 am. Filed under Personal

So, the house I want got another cash offer. $15k below my top offer. And they took it. Because the dumb-ass seller wants a fast close. But, chances are it will fall through too because this will be an expensive house to make into a rental.

11-7-2015, and it looks like the second offer did not fall through. 🙁

October 26, 2015


by @ 8:37 pm. Filed under Religion

I happen to have a very openly Christian friend. I told them I had moved to Spokane last weekend and that I was searching for an apartment. “Ouch why did you move without a place to live” I could not help but reply with, “Heh, the Christian girl asks the Atheist why he took a leap of faith. LOL”

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