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October 26, 2022

Afternoon Sun

by @ 3:52 pm. Filed under Personal

July 18, 2022

I want to take a moment and give a tip of the hat to Roger Harrington.

by @ 10:34 am. Filed under Entertainment, Politics

Yes, the bumbling deeply flawed teacher from Spiderman: Homecoming. That Harrington. Why you ask? I’ll tell you.

I’m sure most of you remember this scene:

[Michelle is standing alone with a book.]
Mr. Harrington: Taking it all in, Michelle?
Michelle: Oh, yeah, I just… um, I don’t really want to celebrate something that was built by slaves.
Mr. Harrington: Oh, I’m sure the Washington Monument wasn’t built by-
[Mr. Harrington looks up at the monument. A park ranger wobbles his hand as a confirmation to Michelle’s words. Mr. Harrington purses his lips and walks away.]
Mr. Harrington: Okay. Enjoy your book.
Michelle: Thanks.

While it’s a powerful scene for multiple reasons the thing I find most memorable is that Harrington has nothing more to say. There is no debate, no questions, not even questioning the security guard. He just drops it.

To me this is critical because it means that he is accepting her views regardless of his own, even tho it could be seen as a questionable situation. (Even the guard isn’t certain.) To see this in a movie reminds me how far things have come since I was a kid, and gives me a little more hope for the future.

For those of you curious if the Washington Monument was built by slaves, John Steele Gordon, premiere historian of the Washington Monument, concludes that they were probably used as labor in the construction of the monument.

July 17, 2022

Pictures from today

by @ 4:47 pm. Filed under Outdoors

July 15, 2022

“Do things that make your family and friends worried about you.”

by @ 2:38 pm. Filed under Quotes

July 9, 2022

You think I’d learn

by @ 8:35 pm. Filed under Expectations, Personal

For decades now I’ve been trying to fill the social hole in my existence. I’ve spent years of my life and tens of thousands of dollars on trying to do things or plan things that I think people might join me in.

And every single one of them has been a complete failure.

Winners never quit, quitters never win, but those that never win and never quit are just stupid.

July 1, 2022

Carnero Spring, AZ

by @ 9:58 am. Filed under Outdoors

Facebook likes to keep reminding me why I shouldn’t be using Facebook.

by @ 9:38 am. Filed under Entertainment, Technology

I posted this in response to a video that called ’90s music “oldies”. Anybody that doesn’t realize this is a joke needs to pull the stick out of their ass. ?

May 8, 2022

Hate days like this

by @ 1:05 pm. Filed under Fishing

Still ferociously windy, and when I went back down to the lake to check my crayfish traps I found that someone had stolen both of them.

May 6, 2022

Daily dose of reality

by @ 12:48 pm. Filed under Business, Politics

May 5, 2022

Time to catch the impossible.

by @ 9:14 pm. Filed under Personal

So, 30-40 years ago in Arizona they stocked arctic grayling in Bear Canyon Lake. But they lost their source of stock fry to grow grayling to stock. They also said that supposedly grayling do not spawn in that lake. The last stocking was sometime in the 90’s.

So someone explain to me how I caught this arctic grayling today at Bear Canyon Lake. 🙂

UPDATE: So I got a response from Game & Fish. Not as rare as I thought, but now we know. Grayling are back in Bear Canyon! 😀

“We have been stocking fingerling grayling in Bear Canyon Lake in May of each year since 2020. You are correct, prior to 2020 we had not stocked them for a long time, but our employees at our Canyon Creek Hatchery have gotten really good at raising grayling from eggs and we now have more fish available than in the past so Department staff figured that stocking those fish into Bear Canyon Lake would provide a very fun experience for anglers fishing the lake.” – RYAN FOLLMUTH | REGION I AQUATIC WILDLIFE PROGRAM MANAGER | ARIZONA GAME AND FISH DEPARTMENT


by @ 8:05 am. Filed under Politics

Some people in my life act like politics is something distant, foreign, something we just shouldn’t care about. I just can’t be that way.

May 4, 2022

Shots fired

by @ 8:52 am. Filed under Politics, Religion

So I saw an advertisement to “Help stop procrastinating” today.

by @ 7:40 am. Filed under Personal

I realized the best way to stop procrastinating is to remove all obligations and responsibilities from your life.
If you don’t have time-based goals you need to achieve in the first place you cannot put them off.
It’s our society that is broken, not us. But people are more than happy to try and sell you something to shoehorn humans into a system they were never intended for. There isn’t much money to be made in disrupting that broken system.

May 3, 2022

This is fun and relaxing. If only woodworking was so easy.

by @ 3:22 pm. Filed under Woodworking

Vanlife, step #27

by @ 3:16 pm. Filed under Vanlife

So I am lounging in Payson Arizona right now. Waiting for the camping rug I ordered to arrive. The sawzall got here already, along with the new water bag and the non-lead sinkers.

I’m not going to head back to the rim without the camp rug. Tracking dirt into the van drives me crazy. And are constantly have to put my shoes on when I leave the van to do much of anything with the little welcome mat I have. Unfortunately I had to send it from Amazon via UPS to a post office box. So it has to be sorted by the post office into the box. Which might happen sometime in the next 7 hours. *Sigh* Thankfully I don’t have anywhere I need to be.

The sawzall was pretty expensive, and I got half a dozen carbide blades for it. But if I’m going to start doing more wood carving it seemed a no-brainer. I’m just not in good enough shape for the handsaw s on larger trees. Thankfully I already have multiple Milwaukee batteries.

The tin fishing sinkers weren’t required, but it’s always bugged me handling raw lead all the time. Hey look okay, unfortunately they’re not removable. I’m going to need to track down some that are.

I was really annoyed about the Sawyer water bag that sprang a leak. It’s only about 6 months old, but the company said there is no warranty on those water bags. Which really sucks considering I spent $30 for the damn thing. The new one I got from Amazon it’s cheaper and more highly reviewed.

I also went ahead and restocked some food while I was at it. I also bought some cornmeal and oats to start my own little mealworm farm. We will see if I can get them to breed more mealworms before I use them all for fishing.

Unfortunately nobody in Payson has the handscrew wood clamp that I need for woodworking. I guess unfortunately I’ll just have to order one. I didn’t even figure that it would be something that no business here in town would have. Home Depot doesn’t even carry one. If the harbor freight they are building here was open they would probably have one. Unfortunately I’m a couple months too early for that.

I also snagged a cheap mat to put under the star link when I’m putting it on top of the trailer or the van. No point in having it rub the paint off if I can avoid it for $6. I looked into a smaller container for the starlink, but it was three times the price of the one I’m using now. And I just couldn’t justify the cost.

I hope this is true, but not for the reason you might think

by @ 7:11 am. Filed under Medicine, Politics

It appears the Supreme Court of the USA is headed to strike down Roe v. Wade this summer.

Now, I am a firm supporter of a woman’s right to do what she wants to do with her own body, let’s be clear about that. But Roe was always on shakey ground in my opinion. What we need is a firm right to body privacy enshrined in law. To make that happen it has to come from Congress. And to do that we need to have Democrats in office willing to make it happen. To do that we need a huge groundswell of angry Democrats, willing to pound their fists on the table for better representation. This is exactly what i hope happens this year. That the overturning of Roe activates enough anger that it solidifies a Democratic majority in Congress.

Let’s make the Republicans very unhappy to finally get what they have been wanting.

May 2, 2022

Men have value when they do things for other people. Men do not have value on their own as human beings.

by @ 3:04 pm. Filed under Politics, Sexism

I wish this wasn’t true, but it is. By all means, prove me wrong.

Yep, term limits are needed.

by @ 2:08 pm. Filed under Financial, Politics

May 1, 2022

How it feels to be a modern American worker living paycheck to paycheck.

by @ 1:52 pm. Filed under Business, Politics

Time lapse of the clouds at Chevelon Lake

by @ 9:26 am. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

April 29, 2022

Current campsite – Chevelon Lake

by @ 8:33 pm. Filed under Vanlife

Vanlife, step #26

by @ 8:30 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife, Woodworking

I finished a wooden spoon today.

I coated it in walnut oil. It doesn’t seem to still be oily, but we shall see.

I think it’s spruce, not certain of that. I’m going back to where I cut the wood for this so I’ll have to figure out what kind of tree it was.

I’m going to pick up some lumber in Payson when I visit this week, hopefully I can get a small workbench made that I can disassemble and travel with.

Itching to get someplace nearer to water. I will probably head out Monday or Tuesday and do a little kayaking at one of the lakes that is easier to get to.

Things are alright here, just kind of boring.

April 28, 2022

I am strangely intrigued by this.

by @ 6:33 pm. Filed under Personal


This is how billionaires use bureaucracy as a way to justify doing nothing.

by @ 11:11 am. Filed under Business, Financial, Politics

It’s clearly obvious the WFP would never make this happen. So Elon can just spend 40 billion to buy Twitter and blame the WFP for letting people starve. He has enough money he wouldn’t need the WFP to end world hunger if he really cared. It’s all justification for being greedy.

So true…

by @ 8:17 am. Filed under Mental Health

Random happy picture.

by @ 7:43 am. Filed under Happy

Vanlife, step #25

by @ 7:37 am. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Starlink has been working well so far. So long as it has a clear view of the northern sky. Which is kind of funny since the solar needs a clear view of the southern sky. I guess the perfect place to camp out is in the middle of Kansas. LOL

Using toxic masculinity as a weapon against a man.

by @ 7:28 am. Filed under Crime & Justice, Personal

“Nobody will believe you because you’re a man.”, “Be a man Johnny.” This sure doesn’t seem like an abusive man to me.

Facebook seems to be getting harsher lately.

by @ 7:19 am. Filed under Personal

I guess I’ll be posting more here since Facebook doesn’t like dark humor. It’s not really like Facebook is more than sharing things with people who are already your friends anyway.

You could also say it’s not exactly the best idea to cut somebody off from contact with others when they’re posting something about suicide.

April 27, 2022

Vanlife, step #24

by @ 12:24 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Decided to stay at Chevelon Canyon Lake for another week. Then I’ll head back to Payson and pick up a few things before going to Bear Canyon Lake.

Still recovering from the nasty trip down to Chevelon and back. It’s really quiet here, the place is still totally empty.

April 25, 2022

Vanlife, step #23

by @ 10:17 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

The road from Chevelon Lake campground down to the actual lake isn’t a road at all. It’s a moonscape of broken rock.

I made the horrible mistake of trying to take an inflatable kayak down to the lake and back in a wagon. It was grueling. Not a single bite all day either.

That was yesterday, today has been spent trying to recover. Tomorrow will probably be worse, then I’ll start feeling better.

April 21, 2022

Vanlife, step #22

by @ 9:34 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Well, it’s been a long day. Started the morning up near the Tonto Creek hatchery. Went into Payson and did some laundry. Then got all my shopping done, picked up my mail, and drove all the way out to Chevelong Canyon Lake.

I have a total of four additional fishing poles now. One I got at Goodwill for $5, but I need to print a part to fix it.

The road to the lake was horrific. At one point I seriously wondered if I would be able to make it, but it turned out okay. I ain’t going back for two weeks unless some disaster comes up.

One of my Sawyer water bags sprang a leak, so I have to dry out my rug. Not thrilled about that. Need to order a better bag. Perhaps I can fix the existing one for now with the patch kit for my inflatable kayak.

Need to dig out my Otzi grill and try it out tomorrow. Along with getting the kayak to the lake for the first time.

Time to get some sleep.

Vanlife, step #21

by @ 9:28 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Well, ordering more fishing poles. I broke two poles in two days. Not exactly terrific, lol.

April 15, 2022

Vanlife, step #20

by @ 9:59 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

The Rim Road is open! Finally, I can head futher north away from the heat. Not that it’s been hot so far, but i’m no longer limited in where I can go vs where I want to. I’m debating if I should wait or go up towads Chevelon Canyon Lake now. Decisions, decisions. I’ve got a decent spot here for internet, but it’s not really a campsite. I’ll have to ponder this more tomorrow, time for sleep right now.

Blue Alert? How about Bullshit Alert…

by @ 5:06 pm. Filed under Crime & Justice, Politics

So I get this alert on my cellphone abaout someone that hurt a Phoenix police officer.

I cannot help but think this is abuse of the notification network just because the police can do it.

There are a lot of alerts that I should be getting before hearing about a cop getting attacked when police have a lower approval rating than congress.

Native women missing and probably murdered? Nah, that’s no big deal, but a cop attacked! LET’S ALERT EVERYONE! OMG!

April 12, 2022

Vanlife, step #19

by @ 6:00 am. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

I got a new container for my starlink today. The cardboard box that came in was getting pretty beat up.

So I headed towards Bear Flats today and found a nice little pulloff spot. Not near any water, but level and quiet. Plus it’s lower in elevation so the coming cold should be milder.

Shortly after I arrived a truck with an older couple pulled in past me, and got out to pickup trash. They stayed about ten minutes and then drove back out. As they were going past me they stopped and the woman got out.

She walked right up to me and said, “Beautiful isn’t it. You’re going to clean up after yourself, right?” Now i’m not a litterbug and I didn’t have a mess there. She wasn’t working for the forest service, and her tone seemed shockingly condescending. You know, like a mother talking to a child. I replied, “Hello to you too. No, I figured I would leave the place a disaster and try to burn down the forest.” She answered, “You say that, but you won’t, right?” Yeah, I was feeling confronted here, without cause. I replied, “I really don’t appreciate the guilt trip. It sounds like you have an axe you’re grinding, so even if I say I will clean up after myself you probably won’t believe me anyway. Please leave.” She thought a second then turned around and went back to the truck. When she got in I heard her say to her partner, “He just wants to be an asshole.” **sigh**

April 9, 2022

Vanlife, step #18

by @ 8:39 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Slow day today. Cleaning up the van and trying to figure out what more to get rid of.

The rim road is still closed, and it’s supposed to get cold by midweek. I’ve got two packages waiting in Payson so I’ll head back when it gets colder.

April 8, 2022

Vanlife, Step #17

by @ 11:14 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

I’ve been fighting my Starlink today. When I swap it over to my custom hardware it barely works at all. I can’t for the life of me figure out why. People online keep shoving me back to stupid things that I know are not the problem.

I guess for now I’m stuck using the original hardware that came with the starlink. Oh well, I guess things could be worse. I headed up past the Christian camp and got a much better view of the sky to the north than I had back down by the upper campground. I’m not near the stream here, but I can walk, heh.

I caught and ate two trout today. I’m not sure if they’ve stocked Tonto Creek yet this week, probably not.

April 6, 2022

Vanlife, Step #16

by @ 11:51 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

I got the POE adapter today. Which is required to power my Starlink dish directly from 12v. I also got the waterproof Ethernet couplers. The rest of the parts came in up in Payson, i’ll be picking them up tomorrow.

Can’t say i’m going to miss Phoenix. It was 95f here today, 11f above normal. I’ve had enough heat for multiple lifetimes. Time to go north and find cooler places.

April 1, 2022

Vanlife, Step #15

by @ 4:44 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

So the part I ordered to convert Starlink to run on DC POE power should have been here Today. Instead UPS lost it and it will be here Wednesday. **facepalm** Sigh…

I guess it could be worse, at least I have internet. 😀

March 31, 2022

Vanlife, Step #14

by @ 10:51 am. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

My Starlink dish arrived today. I’m thrilled with it. Setup was so simple. Plug it in, connect, and that’s it.

Now i’m waiting on some parts to convert the dish to work better in my van. Which is a tad scary, but should work just fine.

March 30, 2022

Vanlife, Step #13

by @ 9:03 am. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

I realized today I’ve had a drone for over a year and never flown it. I keep waiting for, “the right time”, which really translates to, “never”. I will charge it’s batteries today and update the software, hopefully that will get me more willing to use it.

March 29, 2022

Vanlife, Step #12

by @ 2:40 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Fighting with Renogy support today to get them to fix their damn app.

It’s been pouring today in Payson so I’m just hanging out and handling some tech crap I’ve been putting off.

I bought a dozen eating spoons from the local thrift store today. I’m going to get out the grinder when it warms up and make fishing spoons out of them. Need to look into what flashy paints I can apply to bare metal.

I just found out my Starlink will ship today! I should have it by March 31st. So happy! 😀

March 28, 2022

Vanlife, Step #11

by @ 3:18 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Updating electronics and charging things. Shopping day too I guess. Apples, bananas, and oranges, oh my!

Trying to find the emotional excess to work on my novel again. :S

March 27, 2022

Vanlife, Step #10

by @ 6:37 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

People just can’t find Horton Creek. In the 14 days or so I have been here off and on I have helped over 10 different groups of people find where the Horton Creek trail was. Some of which were even in the Horton Creek trail parking lot.

For some odd reason the forest service does not want to mark where the trail is. Which makes it difficult because the trail is actually across a bridge and across the road from its own parking lot. There are no signs pointing you the way from the parking lot. Only a top down sign that shows the general area.

The reason the parking lot is not closer is because it used to be a picnic area, but they have apparently torn out the barbecues and tables associated with it. When Horton Creek became popular in the ’90s as a hiking trail and fishing destination they repurposed the parking lot.

Part of me is sad about all of this, before the 90s when the pace and paper published the story about Horton Creek there was almost nobody up there. There were hikers in abundance after that. I had pretty much free run of the stream before that point. Then somewhere around 2014 game and fish made the stream catch and release only, and artificial lure and fly only. Which I suppose is a good thing because there are a few populations of wild trout in Arizona, but I say that grudgingly. I fondly recall the days of being able to eat some very delicious wild trout from that stream.

I guess partly I don’t like sport fishing. Sport fishing to me feels too much like a cat playing with its food instead of eating it. If I’m not going to eat it, I don’t usually fish for it. The exception would be when you’re engaging in population control, or removing invasive species. For example someone illegally stocked bass, sunfish, and catfish on the rim lakes in Arizona. Before that they only had trout in them. At this point game and fish has set no limit on those species because they want to get rid of them. And Washington State they also had a price on the head of Northern Pike, which are another illegally stocked invasive species. Money is a great way to get people to do something.

I’ve often wondered who did the illegal stocking of the Arizona Rim lakes. Because whoever it is they’ve done it over quite some time now. Back in the 90s I remember the first instance of this where they were bass in Willow springs Lake, it was inevitable that those bass would flow down stream to Chevelon Canyon Lake. However the illegal stockings were also later done in Woods Canyon Lake, Knoll Lake, and Bear Canyon Lake. Which do not share any breedable waterways with Willow springs Lake.

It seems at this point it would be a good idea to do a total fish kill on these lakes and restore only Gila trout and Apache trout to them, which are the two native species in the area. Especially to Bear Canyon Lake, This lake is rather remote by comparison to the others, and it’s water shed is much more secluded.

I did head back into Payson. Hanging out at Walmart. I will go check my mailbox in the morning and decide the next step from there.

Side note, wordpress does not like emojis, lol

March 26, 2022

Vanlife, Step #9

by @ 6:17 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Went down to the streams this morning. Moved one more trout to the top of the little creek, caught another one worth keeping from Tonto. Debating walking down again this afternoon.

Feeding a squirrel by the van, he looks delicious.

Debating when to go back into town. Not having internet sucks. So many basic pieces of information online that we rely on now. Weather, road closures, basic communication, etc.

Went back down to Tonto, not a damn thing.

March 25, 2022

Vanlife, Step #8

by @ 6:34 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Caught one fish this morning. A brown trout that I moved to the top hole of the little stream. Nothing else so far. I didn’t see the other two I moved up there. Hopefully they are still there and didn’t die.

I found out that my spare phone still has an old version of the Renogy app. This older version will allow me to check the solar batteries and charger without logging in on the internet. I’m not thrilled that I have to use it, but it’s better than nothing by far.

I still fucking ache today. Not sure if I’m just beating up my body worse or actually getting in shape.

I have some fishing line coming in tomorrow. Several of my reels need a refresh, and no place nearby was selling good braided line. I tried some flourocarbon line, but it has horrific line memory. Never gotten such bad backlash on a spinning reel. Good for casting heavy lures, but shit for my usual ultralight fishing.

I’m thinking I might take some of the old existing line I have and splice 100′ of the new lighter line on top of it. The new stuff has a tiny diameter, and it seems a waste to load an entire spool with it.

March 24, 2022

Vanlife, Step #7

by @ 6:14 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Stayed in town and downloaded some media with the intent of going back off-network up Tonto Creek.

Had some annoying trouble with my Renogy solar app. It requires that I log in to do anything. Which is far less than helpful if you don’t have internet access. They just want to sell more shit to you, which should be a secondary use of the app which tells you everything about your solar array. Complained, but I don’t think it’s going to do any good.

Got up to the creek in the afternoon. And found a big mess of garbage in the camping area that the families were using last week. I didn’t want it we believe it was the people that I gave the radios and fishing tips too. But as I was cleaning up the trash I found one of the radios. Can’t say I’m thrilled, they seemed a lot nicer than that. Eventually I cleaned up about 30 lb of trash they’d left behind.

I got to work on the leveling boards I wanted to make for the van. I had a short 2×8 from my father that I had cut in half already, and I bought an 8-ft 2×8 to complete them. I started with a nice angled cut through both boards at the same time, only to find that I had gone far as you and my cutting. I had to recut all four slopes.

Eventually I got them put together and some waterproofing on them. They are enough to raise my rig up 3 in. I need to cut the additional pieces I have a little smaller and then I’ll be able to get the rig up four and a half inches. Combine with a small shovel that should be able to level me just about anywhere.

The refrigerator can work normally up to 5° off level. At the moment I’m off 1 and 1/2° front to back and point 3° side to side. I think that’s good enough.

I’m getting tired of this beat up body. I feel like crap. I don’t know if it’s just getting old, just being horribly out of shape, or both.

It’s only supposed to get down to 37 degrees at Kohl’s ranch tonight. With the new electric heating blanket and can easily handle that. Supposed to be warmer than that the rest of the week. Thankfully the daytime highs aren’t supposed to get above 70f.

March 23, 2022

Vanlife, Step #6

by @ 6:13 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

Pretty uneventful day. I picked up Mink Oil, a couple more organizing buckets, and a new 12v heating blanket. Trying to refrain from buying more fishing gear.

I think I will head back to Tonto Creek tomorrow after one of my packages arrives.

March 22, 2022

Vanlife, Step #5

by @ 6:11 pm. Filed under Personal, Vanlife

I ordered Starlink. Hopefully it should give me internet and their most remote places. The geofence on the device was recently removed and roaming has been enabled. It’s not global yet, but it should give me access everywhere in the United States. I am already looking at how to hack the device to make it run off of low voltage only.

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